Chapter 7: Soulmate who wasn't meant to be

the midnight rain

 She was standing in front of me. Looking deep into my eyes with confusion, anger, and irritation. I did not know what to do or say. I was standing as if my body just froze, I couldn’t explain my visit to her ex-friend's mother’s house except by the truth. As soon as I started speaking, she shifted her glance in anger and said “Why did you? For me? Bullshit.” What? What is wrong with her, why was she acting like this? Then I saw the letter in her hand, an opened letter from Juliana. Oh my god, I’ll kill her. what is she even trying to do? I asked Anne gently about the letter. She was still raging, and her eyes were turning red in anger. She was as if she couldn’t hear me at all and started screaming and shouting and saying things like “You just want to hurt me too Mark I know that stop interrupting in my life” She grabbed my both arms tightly. I took the letter from her hand, and she let my arm loose and started crying and fell on the ground, just as soon the sky started growling too. I read the letter and my eyes turned watery. It was Juliana apologizing.

Dear Anne,

You were the only friend I’ve ever had and the only one I had. You know that even when I had my parents together, they still weren’t, and my dad…he has always been a douche to me and especially mom. You used to ask my mom what happened to her whenever she was hurt physically- all the bruises and blood spats on the floor. My dad was a cruel ex-military official alcoholic. When he actually left us, for good- I thought I had all the responsibility now, to take care of Mom. But I couldn’t, I turned out just like my dad. I was a bad bad kid, I hurt my loved ones- you and Mom. I’m sorry Anne for whatever I did to you and everybody else, I know none of my actions had any explanation. But I don’t know any better than to say that I’m sorry. You have been always important to me, and this time I’ll say back that- I love you too (romantically and not friendly). I hope in the next life I turn out to be a good person, worthy of your love but in this life, you should work with the curly-headed guy (perks of being bi ig??)

See you in the next life,

Signing off from Earth

Jules.

It was still raining, and the letter was just as drenched as both of us, lying on the ground of misery, one literally and one metaphorically. I folded the letter and kept it in my jacket. I lifted Anne from the muddy soil in her arms and she was still crying, I was too. I did not know what to do, or what to say so I just drove us back home. In between I was stealing glances of crying Anne. During the whole drive back home she just said one thing- “my parents found out about me being bi, by the letter” I asked her “Then what?” she said nothing.  

By the end of the drive, she finally stopped crying and slept. When we reached her home, I didn’t want her to wake up so I just carried her by the front door, I rang the bell expecting her parents to be home. But they weren’t, so I just took the keys from under the carpet and unlocked the door. I carried Anne upstairs to her room- the prettiest room I’ve ever seen. I put her down on her bed, covered her with the sheets and just as soon I was leaving, Anne held my hand. She asked me to sit on the bed, so I sat confused but concerned. She sat too and cupped my face, then brushed my hair with her fingers, looked into my eyes, and then kissed each of them. She started speaking “You have the most beautiful eyes darling, don’t you ever cry”. “I think I can say the same for you” We both smiled and then I don’t know what happened but suddenly I could feel her lips on mine, brushing and tasting like land after the rain, then I kissed her back as hard as I can as if I was the barren land hungry for water to meet. I kissed her and kissed her and just as much she was kissing me back. My soul left my body as she was kissing me harder and in between she said “Your lips taste like land after the rain" I think this is my favorite flavor now.