soulmate who wasn't meant to be: Mark's pov

 Radiohead

 God, I have been thinking about her a lot, more than I should. It’s unhealthy to think about a person this much. I can’t get her off my mind, but how could anyone ever stop thinking about her? I am jealous of all the people who knew her before me. I am mad at Destiny because why Destiny didn’t introduce Anne to me before, I was miserable before. Still, now that I have seen her and her sweetest smile, the most beautiful curly hair, and known her thoughts and how beautifully she knit them as if everything is so romantic and poetic, she writes poems from the most random thoughts. I also write poetry, but I could never write as well as her, she says she doesn’t write her true feelings, but I don’t believe her that she writes about some fake scenarios that she made in her head because those words don’t come without actually feeling them.

 I was listening to the mixtape she made for me on an actual cassette, can you imagine? And even let me borrow her vintage cassette player. There are literally over 150 songs on the tape and nowadays the only thing I listen to is “de-virgin Before I Die” (the mixtape) it was kind of our inside joke. While listening to it on my headphones it carried me back to the day when I first met her in I library, when she told me how my life is going to change, my life did change- as soon as she said those words. I finally started feeling that one thing I never felt before- love. I find it so funny that it was our first time talking and we were playing 21 questions and her first question for me was what is my favorite cheese, means that’s the criteria for her friendship and I replied “Blue cheese” She made such a disgusting face, which was so funny that I laughed so hard the teacher and all the other students gave us the eye but I was just kidding obviously who likes blue cheese, disgusting. 

The fact that actually library was not even the first time I saw her, it was the junior class orientation. She was wearing my favorite band- Radiohead, white baby tee with blue jacket same as what I was wearing, and had headphones with stickers on them, I couldn’t help but stare at her the whole time. She was like the girl of my dreams- listens to Radiohead means she has god-tier music taste and was wearing that jacket which is too rare to be common but here we are. Since that day I was hoping to find that Radiohead girl from whom I couldn’t get my eyes off, the girl just like me- the one I was looking for, for 16 years I finally found her.